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Post by Roger on Nov 1, 2003 22:43:41 GMT -5
just the way it is
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Post by Mauler on Nov 1, 2003 23:17:26 GMT -5
Agreed!
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Post by Fate on Nov 3, 2003 17:01:27 GMT -5
so true
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Post by angel on Nov 4, 2003 20:39:50 GMT -5
ummm. im lost, whats happenin here?...
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Post by Crimson on May 15, 2014 22:14:23 GMT -5
I've been going over a lot of things based on my past, as immature a thing as it might be to do.
I miss many of the people I used to speak to on here and many other places though I'm sure many would look down on me now.
The truth of the matter is I was a liar about many things, my age, my gender, my name. I wanted to be a grown up, I wanted to be a girl. I have had the opportunity to be one and the other have been transitioning toward.
I can't remember much of how things used to be, about the things that I may have said or claimed to anyone here. But I do want to say I am sorry.
I am sorry for being so childish and afraid as to lie about who I was. I know no one I knew will likely read this now. I regret the lies I've told and missed many of you quite a bit.
I miss hearing about Fireant and Fate's relationship, I miss talking with Roger or Mauler about random stuff once in a while, I miss looking to compete with JJ at the game at some level, and I miss Lay even though they got angry at me possibly figuring I wasn't exactly who I said I was.
A lot has changed I'm sure in all of our lives and the net as a whole. When I was so much younger, when I first came here I couldn't imagine the whirlwind that would become social media sites, I was impressed and obsessed with not just Phantasy Star Online but the net as a whole as it was toward the end of "Web 1.0". But despite all those changes while I left the clan I still stuck around fairly standard forums and BBS's.
I've made similar apologies before as I have done today, much earlier in my life and usually ending with me spending the night crying over my inadequacies as a person and lamenting over the people I would never get to speak to again. But here I ran, I didn't confront anyone here with the terrible person that I am. For that I am also sorry melodramatic as this all may very well be.
I don't expect to be forgiven, I don't expect many people if anyone at all to read this save maybe some bots or passersby. But that isn't to say I don't want to be forgiven.
If nothing changes or if by happenstance everything changes in our lives, for me at least I will remember that summer over 11 years ago when I met so many of you. Though our time was short, though the me that is speaking now may never truly have been known. I thank all of you if only for a time for shaping me into who I am today.
Thank you for being a part of my life, and I am sorry if that meant anything painful for you.
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Post by Mauler on May 24, 2014 15:06:45 GMT -5
CRIM! We've missed you...it doesn't matter if you lied about who you are/were...you are our friend and thats what matters. Great to see that your doing alright and hope to hear from you again. Hang in there and i'm sure that everyone here misses you and is glad to see you back.
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